This and That

The final verdict is that my hard drive is officially crashed beyond repair.  I'm still going to hold on to it, in case a new technology develops which can easily extract data from destroyed HDs, or some act of God miraculously grants me access to it, or I come in to a vast sum of money allowing me to explore all other options of data recovery.
Regardless, I am going to dwell on this loss for a long time.  Me, the girl who cannot bring herself to delete a single photo (an otherwise major selling feature of the digital era) loses every photograph from more than 5 years of shooting (along with so much more) in one fell swoop.
I'm such an idiot.

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Iris is loving preschool.  She likes to pretend I am her bus driver when we are en route to and from school.  She also likes to be dropped off at the door (instead of being escorted in), which is nice because usually Asher falls asleep in the car on the ride to school.  Saves me from having to get him out and wake him up.  She is so crazy adorable, hopping out of the car, running up to the door where her teacher is waiting with hand sanitizer and welcoming her in.  She kisses me before running off, but once she's out, she doesn't look back.  I always ask if she's made a friend in class on our way home.  I'm pretty sure she's made up at least one name.

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I am beginning to get serious about moving the kids into the same room.  I can't wait to have my own room back.  However, I am slightly afraid of what this might do to their sleep habits...

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I have been spending a lot of time feeling like an idiot lately.  I actually put a dent in our new van today.  My first thought was, "how can I make Timm believe this wasn't my fault?"  But I am no good at lying to him- he always sees right through me.  So I immediately sent him a text message while he was at work and fessed up to it.  Hopefully he's imagining something far worse than what it is, so when he sees it, he'll think it's no big deal.  Meanwhile, I still feel like an idiot.  (Yes, I actually hit another vehicle with my van.  It was a parked vehicle with no one in it.  Luckily there was not a scratch to be seen on the other car.  But wouldn't you know, I put I nice dent right by the passenger-side front fender on our own car. Awesome.)

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Asher is learning to walk.  It's exhilarating and terrifying.  He is still such a baby, he shouldn't be walking!  Right now, the longest he'll go is about 5 or 6 feet of distance before sitting down or falling.  It's crazy.  And he's super proud of himself, which is adorable.

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People all around me are having babies.  I am so relieved to not be feeling one iota of baby fever...  I'll leave it at that.

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I am feeling completely unmotivated to process photos.  Which is bad, because I have a TON to do.  I think I am reverting back to the mentality I had when I was in school.  "I work best under pressure" is the excuse of the procrastinator.